All but pleasurable....

I've finally found my CD to study to. It's Sarah McLchlan's "Acoustic Pleasures". It's so soothing.... I guess this is kind of ironic because what I'm studying is all BUT pleasurable. It's stressful. What if I mess something up on clinical with a patient? I can only read so many times on how to give an enema, but get this- my professor told us a true story on how someone inserted the enema into the wrong part of the body and it killed the woman. How horrible is this? How could someone let this happen?! Another classmate that started last year with me said that for her FIRST patient ever on clinical, she was giving her a bed bath then a few minutes later the family was called in because the patient died. That's what scares me... What if my patient dies on me??? Lack of pleasurable things may be why nurses can make so much money.